09 The Ego
10 I’m Not Good Enough
11 Shattering Inner Sabotage
13 Soulful Surrender
14 Change and More is Coming
15 On Light
16 Roller Coaster
17 Tracking Our Thoughts
19 Ever-Present Truth
20 Authentic Transparency
22 List of Gripes
25 Meditation on a Blank Canvas
26 Being Human
27 Infinite Ocean
28 Tools and Technologies
30 Accelerate Your Ability
31 Be the Change
32 Being an Instrument
34 Beyond 33 Days
35 Thank You
Consider the possibility that your triggers have something to teach you about yourself. Something you need to learn. In being triggered, you are being given an opportunity to grow.
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Feeling all the fear, anxiety, anger, sadness…overwhelming as it is at first, actually does provide an outlet for those emotions to flow through and OUT! Being human is so amazing! Bring it on!!!
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Yes, we are each other’s mirror. So what’s after realizing what that trigger is all about, do we just accept it, breathe, relax and let go? Thank you!!! <3 Love you much! <3
What I got was that the trigger will bring up some emotion like fear, anger, not good enough etc. & then I should process that emotion using the tools that we have been working on up till now. I did a pretend ‘test run’ in my mind with my mother-in-law who has a remote for my trigger buttons & I found it to be pretty conclusive. Even though it was ‘pretend’, the emotions fear, anger, not good enough still came up pretty strong! & using the tools I’ve learned so far concerning these, it felt like diffusing a bomb & I felt less emotionally charged. I also really felt that energetic surge that Panache mentioned.
I was literally cringing, thinking when does this end?, when I saw triggers as today’s topic & fearful of any encounters today. That test run really gave me a boost to go out there: I’m here. I’m real. Deal with me.
Feels pretty good… Now ‘ALL’ I’ve got to do is keep my eyes open for the saboteur & the I’m not good enough. Sounds fairly simple, right 😉 I Love you all & thank you for loving me. <3<3<3
Lovely Jennifer! Thanks for the tip to run into triggers in my mind! Love!
You’re right, it is fairly simple. We just make it more complicated by overthinking things. I love you Jennifer.
Charles reading Jennifer’s comment was very helpful and I would like to thank you for your beautiful insight. It allowed me to really get it. I have been in those situation s before . I did not run but sat there and let people get to me. But, now I realize I was finding my true self.
Yes Jennifer, You explained it perfectly, I did the same this morning with my second daughter and her children in mind. They seams to criticize everything all the time. I couldn’t stand it. Just like dad!!! The same emotions came up.
Beautiful insight this brought this morning. I won’t be afraid to see them anymore. I will just have to feel the trigger without expressing any frustration it bring in me. It make relationship much, much easier. 🙂
Wow I had one this morning on Not loveable as I haven’t been invited to a family graduation and feeling rejection, anger, sabatoge, etc. At least we are becoming aware of these emotions so we can recognize and let go of them. Love all the comments-very helpful. Thanks everyone
Brilliant, Jennifer-N! And I had a good laugh over the image of your mother-in-law with a remote for your trigger buttons. Maintaining a sense of humor is great too.
Wow! I am SO blessed by your feedback <3! (&, I still do love my little bit of validation 😉 )
I put this into practice on my end this morning & got 'hit' by a number of sure fire would be triggers, but I can't keep calling them triggers as they just didn't 'trigger' me like they ‘should’/used to. Reading Panache's noon chapter earlier just whisked me along.
And now, argh!, my inner saboteur keeps sneaking up on me & I’m having some rocky times trying to navigate the rest of my day as psyched as earlier.
Any feedback (& pls bring on the love! ) is welcome. I love you all &thank you sooo much for loving me <3
Be gentle with yourself….. just as a small child needs practice with new things to get them right each time and make them second nature, so do we as we process through these stages and steps….. LOVE YOU! in everything you do…. YOU are perfect
Thank you Grace, for so beautifully reminding us of gentleness in the process, as we grow from each days lesson to learn, embrace, and contemplate this range inside…harshness to gentleness, rejection to acceptance: above all with LOVE
thank You JENNIFER, sometimes bringing up these emotions is a challenge til someone says something that triggers our thoughts, and in this case, who or what triggers us, that helped me get my triggers started,,,and OH, that saboteur, is a sneaky one to shake sometimes,,,whew, just know we are here with you,,,sending MUCH LOVE AND BIG HUGS
Like I’ve said, it took MANY years to bring us here and everything won’t disappear in 33 days but now, thanks to Panache, we’ve got some tools to start chiseling away and finding the masterpiece waiting within. Bring in the light with each breath, Jennifer-N!
Hi Jennifer, thank you for your courage and honesty! ( you are not alone, in your eloquent articulation of your feelings…..I couln’t have expressed it that clearly…..Thank you for sharing…
🙂 love, ann
Love the idea of a test run ❤️
Jennifer, teach me your wisdom becasue I am missing something about the triggers and what you say is all true. These people just innately have a way of finding my buttons and pushing them at the right moment. Please help me figure this out.
Thank you, Jennifer
Best Regards, Mary
When someone triggers an emotion in you, it means that the emotion or mindset is already active and matches the one pushing the buttons. For example, if you are carrying anger, you will attract an angry person. If you mindset is I am not good enough, that will be triggered and match the person pushing your buttons.
Being triggered by someone are valuable lessons for growth. It brings your awareness to what is active in you. I hope that helps.
Yes, MARY, taking notice when people are triggering your buttons, like FLORELLLA, said, notice when someone triggers you and practice NOT reacting, as you usually do, and either let it go or just say, “that is an interesting opinion” and let it go, see what happens, how different that makes you feel,,,just observe the buttons, what feeling did that bring up??? and breathe into it and let it go,,,it is such an empowering experience, when we remember to stop ourselves and change our thinking about it, Love
Mary, for me it’s examining MY reaction to the triggers and trying to figure out what’s behind them. If I get cut off by another driver, I get pissed off because how dare they invalidate me!? But they aren’t. They’re just in a big hurry. Triggers bring up what we’ve repressed and never expressed. That’s the blessing in disguise.
Dearest Mary, all I can tell you are my experiences of yesterday & that I am using from now on for now. Instead of feeling/getting distracted & caught up in the need of ‘analyzing’ mentally these triggers (& woooo there were some that should have been out of HELL ! for me! 😉 Woo I’ve come a long way! Thanks Panache!), I just plunged into the emotion/energy & felt/sat with /experienced it & put into motion my lessons learned since the beginning of this journey.
I found the key to doing this was just letting go. I know those are kind of cliche words, so to bypass the mental blabla & get out of my head, I translated them into my physical body by just kind of physically slumping/surrendering/giving in to these emotions & lo & behold, I found myself exhaling very slowly air over & over that seemed to come out of a pit that I had no remembrance of. I found it to be peacefully liberating. This has been working pretty well for me since yesterday.
Go to the source & the mental blabla will really seem to matter less afterwards. It’s only your story being repeated for the nth time. I hope this helps. I love you & don’t ever forget you are safe here.<3<3<3
When we recognize the mirror, we can accept “oh, I’ve done that too” and it can bring about a sense of compassion for our self and the other. In recognizing and accepting, we then can have more awareness to the behavior in the future. It doesn’t mean we won’t ever have that behave again, but eventually we begin to recognize it arising within us much quicker and we actually begin to release it before it manifests physically.
So true, Tara. Thank you for the reminder. ♥
I love this, Tara. You say it much more beautifully than me. Just in the last year I ‘discovered’ what you have expressed. That when I have a sense that someone does not want to be around me, or converse with me, instead of believing immediately that it’s because they perceive me as unworthy of their time or interest, maybe it is an insecurity or unconscious behavior in THEM. I know I project confidence, even when I don’t have it, and I unknowingly project the invisible wall around myself for protection. So I decided that whenever I felt this discomfort coming FROM someone, I would take a moment, practice empathy, try to see what they are seeing and dissolve the invisible wall. It is mostly about energy. I soften my energy, they soften theirs. The next encounter goes better. Fear on my part, and the saboteur at work throughout my life. Slowing down, breathing, empathizing, dissolving the wall are all such amazing techniques. Having to be in ANY situation where I must enter a room full of people, even a small group, and engage without someone to hide behind, is terrifying. I’m getting better, though. And Panache is so incredibly insightful and helpful. Hurray!
Thank you for your sharing, Rhonda, and for bringing up “the wall”… I can relate to this so well, sometimes I feel as if I am still in this incubator, watching the world through a glass wall, not being able to reach out and participate. Breathing might open the window to reach out and overcome the illusion of myself not belonging… YAY!
The delusion of separation ends the moment we begin to see ourselves in another ❤️
I really love what you wrote here. It’s so true. I felt it today.
Oh how exquisitely true…the source of oneness in a visceral experience, and dissolving separateness. Thank you Panache
Osang, my take on it is that, yes, we embrace it and accept the teaching. That’s where the freedom is. Continued resistance only brings more insistent “lessons.”
My husband is my ‘biggest trigger’ and so my most persistent teacher for 23 years now and of course it is the other way round as well. I think that my own willingness to learn, has kept us together although we have not that ‘Loving’ relationship I always wanted it to be. I couldn’t share with him my own willingness to learn, because he had chosen not to learn and just to follow the trigger, blaming me. Let’s say, that he is very ‘Human’ resisting his own ‘Divinity’ and I wanted to be ‘Divine’, resisting my own ‘Humanity’. My poor daughter is caught in the middle of it of course. I am the person who has to learn the whole lesson, because I’m the only one who sees the situation very consciously, and I’m heading towards it I believe. From yesterday I learned, when I am willing to love, to accept and to embrace every part of my own ‘Humanity’ instead of resisting, judging and blaming it, only then I can evolve from a ‘conditional love’, that I resisted all the time, which is very ‘Human’ into the ‘Unconditional Love’, that I desire, which is very ‘Divine’. I can only make this whole transformation through myself. Yesterday I noticed it. My husband came home from work with his usual agressive energy (stress from work, trafic jams, inside stress,…). Normally I stay out of his way, when he comes home, but yesterday I couldn’t because I was ‘making soup’ in the kitchen. I could feel my own first reaction of ‘resistance’, then I focused on Love and at that time I understood that I first have to love my own resistance towards his agressive energie that he brings home every day, from there my love can flow through me towards him. So what I understood completely wrong for all those years was that I thought I had to love his agressive energy, so every time I felt resistance instead of love towards him, I judged and I blamed myself for not being able to love him unconditionally. Although I was willing to process my own feelings, I didn’t seem to get the picture, I had only yesterday. I could only be frustrated about our situation, because I had the feeling that nothing was changing in our relationship, despite all my work of processing. We didn’t come closer and we didn’t go separate ways. We are just living in the same house, as strangers for each other, in parallel ways and we only hold each other as a hostage in this situation and I didn’t understand how this happened. It was not what I wanted, but it was the only thing I got mirrored over and over again, and I couldn’t see where I was wrong. But I finally see it now, so I am happy with this progress within myself. I don’t have to judge and to blame myself for ‘resisting’ him and not ‘loving’ him. I just have to love, to accept and to embrace my own resistance and my self defencing attitude towards him, which is very Human, instead of resisting, judging and blaming it. I have to love, to accept and to embrace my own ‘conditional love’, which is very Human, instead of resisting, judging and blaming it. When I have loved, accepted and embraced every aspect of this ‘conditional love’ inside of me, only then the door to ‘Unconditional Love’ can truly be opened through me, just like I wanted it to be. This is a hugh ‘Breakthrough’ for me. Thanks again Panache for sharing your wisdom from your own experience with us. Thanks again, you all here, willing to learn and willing to discover your own ‘Divine Soul Signature’ and willing to share your own process and insights. ♥♥♥♥
Wonderful description Hilde! Clarity and insight! Awesome breakthrough! Congratulations! Love and Tenderness!
Wow! Thanks, Hilde,I’m in pretty much the same situation as you and I still didn’t know how to handle it til I read your piece. You’ve helped to save me and I’m sooooooooo grateful,I love you, Diane xxxxxx
(((HILDE))) thank you so much for sharing that great example, much love and big hugs YOU ARE AWESOME
Dear Hilde, what an important realisation!! This helps me a lot, as I also live in a similar situation. Thank you for sharing your insight!!! Much love
Holy Smokes Hilde! You are awesome. I love your posts. You vibrate at a frequency that I can understand and relate to. You are very good at expressing the nuances and complications and intricacies of this path that sounds so SIMPLE and it really isn’t so simple for those of us WHO DONT GET IT! You help me get it and I love you for it. Keep posting! So now that I am getting it, I am still lagging on the practice of it. My resistance is strong, and at best, I just can acknowledge i am running from being uncomfortable as I eat my chocolate and go off my diet due to stressful situations at work. Yesterday I tried to stay with my feelings of uncomfortable. I said:
_ “OK” yes, look at me feeling uncomfortable. Yay! And now I will eat that chocolate as a reward for feeling uncomfortable! All my programs kicked in – unworthy, failure on the diet, etc.. etc..etc.. and I said to myself, like I always do, FUCK IT – I don’t care – and this is how I am getting thru it – DEAL – I accept the consequences as the price of living on this Frickin’ Planet and that is that!”
But obviously I do not accept it because I am still angry at myself. I am still clueless on the trick in my head to embrace my feelings. I do “GET” that somehow I am supposed to do that – but not ACT on the feelings, just notice how I feel. But when I do – I get the message I am feeling and then I go straight to my addictions because I gotta get THRU it and keep working etc…
to be continued…
So self awareness is something I have always been able to do. My favorite quote is “They don’t call it ‘Painfully Aware’ for nothing!” 😉 However, my self awareness for all these years of therapy that I have had, still tied into my sabotage and unworthy, unlovable and Not Good Enough conversations. People tell me to not do that. RIGHT! I know that! But no one has shown me HOW to do that. And when they do, I don’t get it – won’t get it – or refuse to do it because it might work and then what would I do? (FEAR kicks in when all other negative conversations don’t work). sigh. I am working on loving my self, but the resistance is putting up a good fight. It has controlled me for so long it really does not want to let go. I have always known not to blame others for my character flaws, but I can’t seem to embrace and love my character in spite of my flaws. I have been told I am Perfectly Imperfect, and I GET THAT, as a bridge to love myself… but I am still refusing to do it. UGH…. and yet I have never given up on myself for the last 30 yrs of pursuing therapy either….. go figure. I am a walking contradiction, and a paradox of conundrums. I see that I do love to be broken and want fixing, which leads me to being a professional “self help” or “patient”. And I am also sick of that role too. I am sick of all my baggage and would like to lighten my load – and then when faced with that reality – I realize I have no idea how to behave if I did not have all my blocks and obsticals and self sabotage. FEAR again. And so I stay stuck. and pissed off at myself and chocolate is my only friend.
Emily, the Beatles had it right so many years ago ‘all you need is love’. Self love, that is. Are you Willing to take responsibility for every event that is happening for (not a typo) you in your life? If you choose yes, you are the only one you have control to change. You may choose to repeat this mantra as often as it pops into your consciousness “I am loved. I am loving. I am loveable. Forever.” These words spoken from the heart, not the head, may trigger deeply held beliefs that block the flow of self-love. Feel them, cry over them, get angry over them, experience every emotion that arises. Then step into the observer role, with no judgments, and let the emotions go and love yourself exactly as you.are, warts and all. Repeat the mantra over and over until all the garbage/baggage and in particular self loathing is transformed into self love which will then flow unimpeded out into your world and all who enter therein. Namaste
Emily, Have you asked yourself… Why am I holding on to this? What are you getting from holding on? You and you alone are the only one who can do it. You can do it if you put your mind where your soul is. Maybe reading the chapter on Fear again will help. The chocolate is doing nothing but holding you back. Let go and live what you know as the truth not holding on to what you have been doing. You sound like you want change so do it for yourself. You will see that it will get easier to move forward. Life is baby steps, one step forward two steps back. Don’t give up growing and finding what a wonderful person you really are as you let go of your baggage. Peace and love
Emily, You said this so perfectly , I see myself so clearly in your comments, I love your vulnerability ad honesty. I love the way your words articulate my feelings and my resistance . I love that we can come here and share so honestly. I love that Panache has loved us so much and so unconditionally to make these efforts on our behalf. I love being a part of this paradigm shift. Love and blessings to us all.
Emily ,there is a quote I heard yesterday,. Change is enviable ,growth is optical . So I believe you are growing and changing, dissipate your belief you are growing ,your are seeing it. But look at it as a person on the other side see you. You are growing my Freind chocolate and all. It takes time to be able to stand outside your emotion and look at them differently . Namaste day my gentle sprite.
I think you mean “Change in inevitable, growth is optional”.
Emily, I love you, I love the way you express yourself 🙂
I don’t know if this will help but here is my input to what seams to me to be your struggle.
For so many years, I tried to love myself. I remember one day crying in my bathtub and with my hand grabbing the air as a gesture symbol for grabbing the energy of love and sending it into my heart because I didn’t know what else to do.
From a online course I took came the realisation that I couldn’t love myself because I never felt loved. I didn’t know what love feel inside.
The exercise at the time was to think about someone we really love and feel loved back. I couldn’t find anyone. So I kept breathing deeply and the memory of my firs love came to me. It was my uncle’s dog that I spend much time with as a child. The dog would do everything I ask him to do. He would walk on a ladder, jump on his dog house etc. My uncle asked me one time: “How do you do that?” I don’t know I said, I ask him and he does it.
So I felt the feeling of love in my heart chakra from the love of that dog and realised that it was that love feeling I was looking for all those years.
I couldn’t feel it because I didn’t know how it felt before. But from that moment it was easy for my to go back to the feeling. I just had to think of that dog and he is always close by anytime I need him. He really was the first love of my life. Hope this help. 🙂
Danielle, I understand this more than anyone can know. There have only been two creatures on this Earth who have loved me unconditionally, who wanted to spend time with me just so we could be in the same space of air. All the others, humans, even my mother, who have professed ‘love’ were really just ‘loving’ a thing, not a human being, something I’ve only realized and understood recently. The creatures who have loved me for real are dogs and two are gone. The second one’s loss was and remains almost unbearable because of the depth of the connection, and by then I had found myself in this life of isolation and consternation about the future. sigh. I just needed to express it. ~ gratitude
Emily! Such an understandable struggle. As I read your words, I kept going back to what Panache told us earlier… to LOVE your self-loathing, accept it, embrace it, love it, love it until you are bored with loving it, until it is no longer useful, say thank you to it for the lessons it taught you, and release it, let it go and make room for new understanding. (((Emily))) ~ encouragement
(((Rhonda))), you are welcome. I appreciate your comment.
Emily, your honesty and transparency are deeply moving. Thank you! I love how we’re all in the same “boat,” with perhaps different expressions of it. We are all here for you and each other. What a HUGE gift that is. ♥
Aloha Hilde, Yes I married my big challenge too. I have often thought if I wouldn’t be triggered by him I would have reached enlightenment. I kept hanging in there convinced I could do it, not wanting to admit defeat. This last while I have started to appreciate him and open my heart more to loving him. Speaking up when he does something that bugs me, but without blame or a charge helps too. I appreciate your insights and to accept myself and not judge my Human aspect for resistance to him. It is very powerful that resistance, it very effectively keeps him at a distance. I see my attachment and saboteur in that resistance. I must be punishing him for some hurt, and feel it will protect me. I am thankful to finally be dissolving this unhealthy tangle. Mahalo
You are headed in the right direction Hilde, now just keep going my sweet friend!
WOW Hilde! I marvel at your openness. So brave. Thanks for sharing.
Wow! You are putting word son my feeling, thanks!
Wow have I been there. My sis is choosing to stay in a sour relationship for 43 yrs. I have been married four times and now divorced again as I couldn’t live with blame and self sabatoge any longer. These classes are so helpful. I was feeling badly this morning because I haven’t been invited to my daughters sis in laws sons graduation party. I am learning to not see myself as not good enough or unlovable but it takes work. All these comments are so helpful. blessings to all.
Pamela, You ARE going to be alight (that was a typo that I’m going to leave because it certainly resonates a whole lot better than the ‘alright’ I was trying to write 😉 ! <3
Thank you, Hilde, for sharing your experience with this — which I feel we all share in our unique expressions of it. ♥
Hilde, dearest, thank you for your most honest and depth of sharing. Your persistence and your growth is amazing. I’d like to share a bit of my experience. For me, unconditional love doesn’t have anything to do with ‘changing’ anything about someone. For me it starts with acceptance exactly ‘as is’. I was looking for intimacy and love as A, B, and C, but it was right under my nose as “D, E and F”. When I started accepting, it took a while because of years of resistance, but soon everything began to change, although I didn’t need it to, anymore. I love you, and thank you for loving me.
Hmmm. Triggers. One big one is “stupid people.” I have little or no tolerance for stupidity — my own or anyone else’s, and I really judge that. Another “biggie” is what I’ve judged as “idiot drivers.” Boy, I LOVE to make them “wrong.” Of course, I’m the “perfect driver.” Definitely feeling “better than” when I see someone do something stupid in their car. Another one is being told what to do by someone who thinks s/he has the “right” to do that. My reaction — whether I say it or not: “Who died and made you God?!” I’m sure there’s more. Be back later with the next installment. 🙂
YOUR humanity is the doorway to YOUR divinity ❤️
(((Hilde))) I loved reading this. I re-read it. You unravel the complexities of Triggers and the responses, and explain yourself so beautifully. Thank you! ~ love
Committed relationships are often OUR greatest catalysts ❤️
I second that! <3
Yesterday evening I talked with my fiancé and she brought up this theme, we live with similar friends, avoiding the people who are different and avoiding the triggers. My fiancé has been my main trigger since we met as lovers and become a family six years ago. I have two divorces before and our daughter Stella came so this time I had to face myself fully! Also I had to laugh at many repetive structures that was so similar with all three love relations, then I had to admit it is about with me, had to look at myself! After these years I love to say that my fiance started reading Soul Signature book a couple of days ago. I have waited for her and introduced Panache very slowly this winter and Now she herself asked and joined. This concept to run into fear and investigate is terrific and terrifying. I have done this intuively many times since my life has changed a lot so often. When it comes to Change I have to go My Way and fulfill my inner wish and now I learn that this has given and will give me a lot of opportunities to grow! Thanks Panache and fellow travelers! Thanks! Love and Courage!
Dear Ivar, I am definitely with you on thia one. when it comes to change, you really do have to go your own way. Even though sometimes it’s difficult. In light and love my friend.
I love this, Ivar: “This concept to run into fear and investigate is terrific and terrifying.” So true. And how brave are we all to even consider and willing to give it a try. I am with you and ((( Anne ))) there, too, that it’s necessary to go our own way when it comes to change. It is difficult to change while keep going the main roads with everybody. And it’s okay to do so. Thank you for bringing this awareness up in me. What a great example with your fiancé… the change you become in the world rippled out to her… Your self-love radiating out to her and giving her the opportunity to change. AWESOME !
I am often being poked and when I am I wear it, digest it, beat myself up for it, wonder what I’ve done wrong, and allow it to eat away at me for days even weeks reliving the moment, dissecting the moment and wondering what I could have done to make things better!!
I have much work to do with this one and plenty of situations to practice… 🙂
Love and support!
Holding you in Love and High Energy to process each and every one. We are all so blessed to be connected here. I live with a friend who pokes me regularly too! giggle. Thank you Thank you Thank you. I grow, I learn, I love, I am in joy! Blessings to you dear Pennymay
Thank you for writing the story of my life! just know that you are not alone.
Yes, the actions or remarks of an unpleasant person can linger with me and cause discomfort for hours or sometimes days, even when it is obvious the person’s behavior or remark was absurd or selfish or driven by their own stress. Today I’ve learned a new tool to practice that will, I’m sure, dissolve the discomfort much faster. So, yes, let’s all practice together! ❤️
YES! Owning who I am as in being responsible for who I’m BEing! Today should be interesting! I had a dream where I “met” my saboteur and, after waking up, I’ve come to see that my saboteur is actually a judge! The saboteur judge wants to monitor me like “LIFE is a TEST “( re: getting it Right) rather than an UNFOLDING (like really BEING with myself as Life happens). I hope this makes sense…I posted the dream on FB so I’m just moving forward with it and seeing triggers as what Life is bringing up for me to realize where the Light of Love needs to shine so that I can unfold into the Unconditional Love of myself! Unfolding v Test? I choose UNFOLDING! Thank You Dear Soul Family!
Wonderful Kenn! 🙂
Wow….that is beautiful Kenn! Thank you for sharing. You are an amazing Soul and by the Light of Love, I see myself in you. Namaste
Yes ,KENN, I see and agree. My saboteur is also my Judge. Thanks for pointing it out.
Kenn, by you mentioning FB, a BIG INSIGHT came up for me. I got out of FB last year and just realized that it was because it was triggering me and I couldn’t face it. Now I think I can go back to it and practice what I’m learning in here. Thank you so much. Like you I choose UNFOLDING. LOVE YOU. 🙂
Oh, dear Kenn, you have just made me aware that I believe everything in life is a test, and it’s a test on which I must make no mistakes, and if I make a mistake and someone notices and berates me or scolds me, I am humiliated! Thank you so much for Life is Not a Test, It is an Unfolding. This brings a sense of relief. ~ gratitude
! ! WONDERFUL!!!
The key is- not to turn the trigger my BACK- instead look in his/hers face or even better-EYES- the answer might be there:) – I am just wondering- sometimes it seems as if I AM my most present TRIGGER to MYSELF —- no TURN AWAY….- looking for the next mirror…….AND … see what is going to happen-
It IS about EXPLORING..everywhere.. everything .. AWESOME….
Triggers came from our childhood patterns.Our first 7 year´s. Also attractions.Still it can hurt. you have to love yourself and nurish yourself and take away all negativitey that is till stuck.Often people marry to their patterns. I did.
Me too! A great opportunity to grow! Love and Tenderness! 🙂
Talk about TRIGGERS…I am mother of the bride for a big wedding tomorrow with complicated family arrangements… who sits where, how do we deal with any possible flare ups…I will just run towards every trigger and embrace the people with love. Rather than sitting fuming internally, which is what I have usually done with any anger, hiding and ignoring it, I will embrace my fire, too. I already feel lighter just thinking about it! Thank you Panache for your transparent sharing, and to all the brave souls revealing your emotions so courageously here. I am very aware that bringing things into the open, rather than living in a swirl of internal spirals, makes a huge difference. As is said, what we resist persists…and it makes so much sense now. Feeling all the fear, anxiety, anger, sadness…overwhelming as it is at first, actually does provide an outlet for those emotions to flow through and OUT! Being human is so amazing! Bring it on!!!
Lovely! We are also in a big wedding between Body, Soul and Mind! Love and Trust!
Wow….the big wedding tomorrow is such an opportunity to be fully human. Laugh, cry, and be all that arising you in! Run to the triggers Cosmic Sunshine and live life fearlessly! Congrats to the family and Much Love and Harmony to all
Beautiful, Cosmic! Sounds like you have a big “test” tomorrow. What an opportunity — which you already are embracing!
Wow! COSMIC SUNSHINE. Isn’t it wonderful how you arranged to look at all of this with your family wedding. I bet you will have some insights to share from this experience. Way to go jumpstart change!
Cosmic Sunshine, I feel the same about going to my daughter wedding in August. Thank God, I have more time to practice and get ready. :-)).
I Love that, (((COSMIC SUNSHINE))) I will be looking forward to hearing how that works out for you at the wedding, that is so EMPOWERING,,,,,,I love that
yes, so true, “what we resist persists” until we figure it all out,,, and adding to that, “WHAT WE FOCUS ON GROWS”,,,how wonderful it is to remember to pay attention to our thoughts and feelings so we can react in a more positive way,,,have FUN with that tomorrow, Darling,,,observing and just sending out LOVE everywhere you go,,,,,,,I like this one, when someone says something you don’t agree with, you can just choose to stay neutral and just say”that is an interesting opinion”, and just leave that one alone,,,,,,,,,love and hugs
Its very interesting the the topic today,I am listening standing my ground and in doing so I am raising my awareness. Thankyou many blessings of Love/Light
This a good one…first I thought I didn’t have any then……when I have an immediate dislike for someone, I find myself bending over backwards to please them, doing things for them I wouldn’t normally do. Not too sure why I don’t like them, other than they rub me the wrong way. My husband triggers me everyday….most days I can shake my head and say “whatever” to myself. So know to go deeper, it may have to do with my not being assertive enough, that’s the part of me I should examine more closely, I don’t really believe that it’s a major flaw but then again, it’s been with me since I was a child, actually, this is difficult to put into words…..I don’t like the feeling of discord so I try not to make waves….ripples yes, knock you over waves, no. hugs
Many times we cant put it in words, limits, its enough to Feel, Be and Embrace! 🙂
Yes! so true Ivar, so true.
Elizabeth, you just made me laugh at myself because I used to believe, subconsciously, that in order to make no ripples, it was my responsibility to help everyone solve their problems, at home, at work, with family, everywhere… do things for them, listen intently, help them with the difficult things, always be there. Eventually, the result was always just more, bigger, ripples and waves. And sometimes they became jealous about how much of my time and help someone else was getting! Everybody looked to me to solve every little thing. It affected my health, and certainly my well-being and emotional confusion. Those were my doormat days. I have found that respecting and recognizing my own needs and NOT being a doormat has caused fewer ripples than the doormat approach. But it took me to unfamiliar, scary territory. Thank you, Elizabeth, and thank you to everyone here. This place is awesome! ~ love
I really appreciate that you (PD) share personal experiences from your own journey. I can feel things shifting for me as I follow this 33 day path. It is amazing what love can do. Especially when decisions are made out of love rather than fear. Sending love to the community!
I agree with you totally on this. The best part of this book is how deeply personal it is because it brings such reality and possibility to the reader this way I feel. Returning your love Erin, thank you.
I met him 10 years ago, this African boy and fell madly in love with him, although he represents everything I don´t want to be… I despise his unpoliteness, his agression, his raw sexuality, his indifference, but deep down I secretly love it all, because I know those are the parts of me I denied, pretending to be such a ´good girl´ I am sick of all that pretending, I want it all, it´s all who I am! My raw authentic, human me!
Like so many of you, my biggest trigger is my family. Every week I get the opportunity to see how much I have come into acceptance as my sisters come to visit. Like minded you say, we could not be any more different. I left home at an early age and moved to another state to get away from a family, for the most part, who were completely and totally different from me in every way. When I was younger I used to think that surely I was adopted or maybe an alien. It has taken me a long time to see them as an opportunity for growth and to love them anyway. Funny thing too, all of my like minded friends have somehow fallen away and instead those who come into my life could not be further from my own experiences and beliefs. I am trying to see this as a good thing, but sometimes it is really lonely.
Janet, I agree that family is probably our biggest trigger — it certainly was for me (and still is sometimes although both my parents are deceased). Someone recently posted a Ram Dass quote on Facebook: “If you think you’re enlightened, go spend some time with your family.”
Carol, LOL, so true
CAROL,,,isn’t that the truth, I see that in so many families, our biggest place for growth, right,,,
my biggest trigger these days, is my blinking computor, like when it freezes. like this morning, as soon as I tuned in to this page, malfunction,,,,,had to reboot and start all over,,,,,,,ready to throw it out the window, AGAIN,,,until I think about having to go clean it all up,,,from the 4th floor, on the cement,,,but, ohhh what a site that would be, haha
Wow one of my sisters is my trigger. We have for our our whole life always been like fire and water. But I have always accepted and loved her for who she is. But I couldn’t agree when I truly didn’t feel what she said or did was how I felt. 5 months ago our father passed over and she did something to me and other sisters that is unbelievable. I have forgiven her, as deep down it didn’t surprise me. But I will never forget. I get all stressed out thinking about seeing her or having to talk to her. I am hoping with time this will get easier and the stress feelings will not be here. Just had to write this as maybe this will help me to let go of the stress feeling. Deep breathing has helped with writing this. Peace and love to all
I know about this trigger so well, since my sister is also my trigger. It will get easier. Just continue your journey to a higher place and you’ll see that soon she won’t bother you as much any more as you become more centered and peaceful inside. ♥
Had it with my brother for many years. No problem any more. I had to leave him to live his life and take care of mine! Love and Care
Family is always a good trigger! 🙂 Without going into the whole story, I will just share with you that my most recent experience with family just triggered in me these feelings of not being lovable, worthy, or good enough to my family or to “my family’s God.” What I continue to work on is believing that “our God” loves me as well, I am lovable, I am worthy, and I am good enough. So for each time they trigger this in me, I can process that emotions (sadness, etc) and change my thought process into being grateful for the opportunity to remember that no matter what anyone may say, I am lovable, I am worthy, and I am good enough. 🙂
To all those who bravely posted their triggers and findings, would it help to know that what you’ve learned, you’ve taught us all? Because they have. I thank each and every one of you. ♥
Thank YOU for this reminder. I love it!
Anne, I meant to write: I love you! Thank you for your kindness and gentleness!
You’re welcome Sabine. I love you too. ♥
I have to admit that I’d been a bit disappointed in this book. Things were going too easy for me to think there was much power here. Then we got to Day 10: I’m Not Good Enough, Day 11: Inner Sabotage and today Day 12: Triggers. The out loud “I’m not good enough” was awesome. First time I did it my dog ran to my side, put a paw on my shoulder and covered me in kisses to assure me it wasn’t true. Then the email for that day arrived a day late – so I did it again and was surprised to cry even harder (with no loving dog to distract me) and also that day my inner saboteur was alive and well. It was so soul shaking to read of Panache’s experience after Super Soul Sunday – I too was in a time of feeling like a fake, a fraud… all due to a video critique that I asked for which stated I needed to smile more even as I told my story of depression on my website. I thought doing that was the most inauthentic thing I could ever do. I wanted to fight the guy who said it (mind you I asked for his feedback). I was ready to quit the coaching program that the advice came from. Then today – I recognized the trigger for what it was. It triggered my fear that I’ll never be “over” my depression, (In my own presentations I tell people once you’ve attempted or seriously contemplated suicide, it is a thought that never truly leaves) and that I can’t help people in emotional pain because I could end up right back in the shit with them… Panache’s book has turned the corner (as I have) and become one of my favorites now.
Thank you, Panache. You are such a radiant, loving light.
Lotsa of light & love on your path, Andy <3 What you just shared reminded me of my own fear of never being 'over' my stroke etc. & I was able to dare to look at that fear & to 'see' it in a different light. Many, many thanks <3
Beautiful, Andy! Thank you for your courage and authenticity. ♥
Sending YOU Love Andy ❤️
Love and Trust!
AWESOME ANDY, sometimes we just don’t see the other emotions ti we get one that hits a home run,,,they were not resonating with me either until we hit “GUILT”, now I can see all the other ones coming up off and on,,,thank you for sharing,,,love and hugs
It really bothers me when people are tardy. I find myself getting edgy sitting there waiting for someone to pick me up, arrive, wait for their call etc.. Upon further meditation on why I get so worked up. I realized it is my fear of abandonment. Are they not picking me up? Did they forget me? Do they not care? This was an eye opener, better yet, a consciousness opener. It really shed light on some of my past experiences I thought
I had gotten over. Talk about the breath. It was a huge exhalation!!
Panache, I really like the “run toward those and things that make you uncomfortable”. It has changed how I am relating to my surroundings. I feel more aware, observant and strangely more at peace. Thank you.
Yes, it is so good to run toward! Love and Care!
Triggers. I avoid conflict and low vibration people, like my uber religious family. I often avoid men and being loved because I always end up getting hurt. We are in a cocoon of sorts and I am being tumbled about, all these thoughts, beliefs, nightmares from childhood – I’m shining Light on them today. I am so honored to be here. What an amazing gift. I send you all LOVE. I LOVE MY TRIGGERS.
Great! Love and Light!
My triggers seem to be people who keep finding fault with things and judgement about others. For example, if I mention I dropped a can on my foot, then that person I told goes to worst case scenario when its only a bruise. I was just commenting to this other person I dropped a can it wasn’t something to create a problem over. I find I notice this more the more I work on letting things go. I guess its almost like yesterday’s lesson we worked on. . the saboteur, c’est ne pas? The more I work on letting things flow and go, the more I get things to test me if I can. The things I notice the most are judgement, finding fault and negativity. However, at the same time, I notice more points to step back from that like I did yesterday when the lady at McDonald’s said she was having a bad day with her co-workers and I told her take some deep breaths. She then paused and thanked me. I mention to someone I am going to work in the yard and they start complaining about gardening. I say I don’t mind, but they continue complaining like they have to do my yard chores. Its pretty funny actually how so bound up people get about things that really don’t have a negative impact on them. Then that person didn’t even hear me, which is a trigger for me, not being listened to. So having said that even though I see the triggers, I also see I’m aware of them and I am getting better at noticing in the moment to either let it be, notice if I’m to say something or not, or just silent bless the situation. Also, noticing that sometimes its best to not say anything if I know that other person will not be able to hold back their own negativity. I don’t have to bring it out in them if I know that is what will happen for them. Which is to say I don’t have to egg them on or be a party to their choices when they are not in my best interest. Growth.
Trisha – As it does seem triggers are a mirror for us, is it possible you are judging others for being judgmental? Is it then possible you stop listening to them? Just a possibility to consider as I found these things to be true for myself at one point in time.
Trisha, over the years I finally learned to just let those who enter a conversation about something that happened or about my own statement (like you said, maybe I mention I’m going to the dentist or something) with judgement, fault-finding and negativity… to let them ramble on and tune them out as much as possible. I’ve learned that in ALL situations, people would rather talk than listen, and they would rather talk about themselves, their opinions, their likes and especially their dislikes. That’s just human apparently. I used to think I was obligated to listen intently and nod and interact, but I’ve learned they don’t even care if I’m listening or not. So, I just get busy with something, or excuse myself politely. There has never been a penalty like I expected for this, because they don’t notice or care. When I used to call my husband at an acceptable time every day as he expected me to ‘check in’ even though it was all about him and nothing about me, what I eventually learned, as he rambled on and on, was that I could put the phone down, do whatever (like change clothes as an example), pick up the phone again, and he was still talking and would never know I had been absent. He would say, “Well, it there anything I can do for you at this end?” It was not a sincere question. I learned quickly it was the signal that the call was over. Now, I know that type of person is not someone to welcome into my universe. It’s getting him OUT of my universe that is my current, steep, rocky, dangerous mountain to climb. Somehow this makes me want to conclude with a smiley face!
haha, Oh, RHONDA, your story makes me laugh,,,lol,,,I have a friend that does that all the time, like he is more important than me, I don’t get to tell my story and he butts in talking about himself that has nothing to do with my conversation,,,,,,whew, I have put the phone down many time and walked off and did something else too, if he does not care about me, I don’t have to listen to him talk about himself either,,,,,,he hardly EVER knows I left him sitting on the shelf,,, 🙂 I understand that smiley face, love
Thank you, Teresa! I have done it a LOT and my husband has never had a clue. In addition to narcissistic personality disorder my husband has characteristics of Asperger’s (which I think saves him from being a complete sociopath) so he can go on and on and on about every excruciating detail of things. News flash (for me at least)… I got past one big hurdle today. I went to the Notary, signed the Affidavit for my petition for dissolution of marriage and sent it on its way to my attorney. All the while telling myself, this is not “happening to” me, it is “life unfolding” and whatever comes, it will be correct for me at this time. Thank you, thank you, thank you to (((Panache))) (((Kenn))) and all of (((you))). ~ accomplishment
Your welcome, Huny,,,I LOVE YOUR COURAGE to take that next step into your new beginnings, much love,,,
People who I’ve perceived to be “energy vampires”, people who suck the life out of you because of “their” insecurity, loneliness, inability to be on time, always got on my nerves. It just hit me! When a friend was consistently late I felt disrespected. When I showed up at a friend’s who wasn’t ready and constantly asked ME what SHE should wear i couldn’t bear to think that my opinion mattered that much. When a co-worker is inept at his job and I end up covering his ass i feel resentful because I’ve always taken on everyone else’s responsibilities. I’m tired of being exhausted. It’s time for a lighter me, literally, physically,emotionally and every other-ly there is! 🙂 Rather than pulling (away from) the triggers, I’ll keep the safety on and embrace my own imperfections.
Much love to you, Sachi. ♥
You will find your Peace within, during these days! It is truly possible to Be in Love, making a shield around yourself, give Love to persons you meet, they seek Love and they can drink from your River while You are sacred in Your Temple inside. All these triggers will polish You to Love! You and We are perfect in our imperfections! 🙂
Not starting off well today. Instead of clarity, I awoke from bad dreams to a state of confusion. I dreamed of being at the beach where huge breaking waves loomed but never came to shore. Sometimes the waves flowed parallel to the beach instead of toward it. I was fascinated and didn’t feel fear. Then I was on the last evening of a journey with women, friends, I thought. We agreed to retire early to be fresh for the morning, so I went to my room. The bed was on tall legs, higher than a top bunk, but I climbed up. Different men kept knocking on the door and telling me I needed to move for various reasons and finally revealed it was so they could ready the room for a different guest. I refused. Then I looked out the window, and saw my fellow travelers out for a stroll, talking and laughing. I watched through the glass, separated, excluded, not fitting in. Then, one friend came in and said she was hungry and we should go eat. We ended up in a run-down betting parlor and ordered fries. She pointed out to me that neither of us had enough money for more. She had more than me but I had not even realized I didn’t have enough. Oh my, the saboteur was at work! Ready to start this day anew! (((hugs))) to all. ~ hopeful
What a powerful dream, Rhonda, “juicy” with what’s surfacing for you, right? Love and blessings. ♥
((( Rhonda ))) Holding the space with you for your being hopeful… You WILL return to love again… Many blessings!
Love and Compassion!
Yesterday I wasn’t able to get in touch with my saboteur. In fact, I would say that what I wrote about me personally was a thick layer of bullshit, to hide what was going on inside and what I was scared to even look at, much less. share. But the dam broke last night and I was deluged with self-loathing, fear and bone-deep sadness. As you read what my saboteur says, and you want to respond, please do not try to “fix” me with comments about “what’s really going on.” I know what’s going on here. Words and energy of love, support and connection are most welcome however. Thank you.
My saboteur: “I will dog your every step for as long as you live! What makes you think you deserve to be happy? You don’t! I’ll make sure you are never happy, that you never get what you want no matter how hard you try! You don’t deserve it! You will struggle to have enough money, to be loved, to be healthy, to be successful. I’ll make sure you never have those things! You will live a life of suffering, heartbreak, poverty and anything else I can find to hit you with. Even your own mother didn’t want you or love you. And your father thought you belonged to him to do with whatever he wanted. No matter how hard you try, what you want will forever elude you. You don’t deserve ANYTHING good! And I’ll make sure you NEVER get it!”
I started realizing last night that something was “off” in me when I wrote my last comments about not having much “movement” and being very tired. Clues, I see now, that I didn’t want to look at how I’m sabotaging myself. Before going to bed, I decided to listen to the Q&A replay from Wednesday. At some point – and I have no idea what triggered it – I began crying, then sobbing uncontrollably. I saw the HUGE ways I’ve sabotaged myself – at every turn in my life. I have sabotaged ALL areas of my life and not only not allowed, but actively “firebombed” any possibility of success: my health, career, academia, love relationships, ad nauseum. One action could have landed me in prison. I judged and sentenced myself to a life of misery, never allowing myself to quite “make it” in those areas. Needless to say, carrying around this much self-loathing has exacted a very high price. And I’m no longer willing to pay it. With palms open, I say, “God, please help me.”
Carol, I am so happy for your breakthrough and your courage to express it. What a clear message you got from your saboteur. Now you can recognize it. Yea You!
Thanks so much, Cheryl Rose. ♥
What a HUGE, HUGE breakthrough, Carol! If you’re like me sometimes (real resistant so it draaags on, so when that energetic wave hits, it’s like a tsunami), you must be exhausted. Please take the time to rest & honor & mostly give yourself TRULY deserved love. <3
I’m so touched by your encouragement, Jennifer-N, and moved to tears. It seems all my emotions are right on the surface today — and that’s a GOOD thing. I am exhausted — in a good way. I just drank some Emergen-C to support my immune system, as I know from past experience that this level of intensity can sometimes bring on physical illness. It doesn’t feel like that will happen now, though. I plan to lay down and rest in a little while — and then come back here refreshed.
I am touched to be of service. Sweet dreams, Sweetie, & see you later <3
Much love, Carol, as you continue standing in this revelation. What a blessing to have so much revealed. lots of love and hugs.
Thank you, Marcia. ♥
WOW! Carol, powerful opening you are having. To me it sound like day 10 for me when I thought I was having a heart attack. Those break true are so very powerful. I’m happy for you. Take care of you today. Worm bath has always worked for me. Or a walk in nature. What ever work for you it’s time to do it. LOVE
Wow! Carol, what a break true. I sound like mine on day 10 when I thought I was having a heart attack. Those awakening moment are so powerful. Thank you for sharing. I love you. Take good care of yourself today, you deserve it. It was huge. 🙂
Carol, your comment: “don’t try to fix me” trigger a hug one for me. It’s so funny the way it unfolded. I wroth my first comment to you and it didn’t worked. So I wrote another one and it still didn’t worked. Each time a error message appeared. So I thought this must be a sign for me so I got out of here and took time for feel the feeling it broth up for me and I breath trough it.
Don’t tell me what to do or how to do it was always my reaction. This past few months I have been aware of myself doing the same thing. Wanted to be helpful I give advice without invitation. No wonder my kids stay away from me. 🙂
After my first comment to you I realised I had given you the advice to relax. So in the second I tried not too. But still did it. I realised I was afraid of saying anything upsetting like I do with my kids. So when I came back and saw both my comments had showed up I laugh. I saw it as a sign of having done a good job within me by feeling my feeling that have been triggered. Thank you wonderful Carol. I love you. 🙂
No problem, Danielle. Interesting how we’re all connected and seemingly “accidental” events further our transformation, isn’t it? 🙂 ❤️
Yes it is 🙂
(((Carol))), I can so relate to the words of your saboteur. And reading them here in the light tremendously helped me! I honor your courage to face your saboteur and re-claiming your innate right for a life FULL of everything you desire. And you called your most powerful ally in: God… Your saboteur cannot but pulling in his tail and disappear. YOU are magnificent… In the light of the truth, in the light of LOVE everything less than this has to fall away and dissolve… YOU are so loved!!!
Thanks so much for the encouraging words, Sabine. [Wiping tears.] ❤️
((( CAROL ))) So much love to you
Thanks so much, Kaye! Love right back at you. ❤️
You have helped yourself! Great breakthrough! Love and Light!
Thank you, Ivar. ❤️
Sending you lots of love dear Carol. You are incredibly courageous at last to truly feel, so deeply, with every fiber of your being and to finally cry those tears that had been bottled up inside for so long. Sending you lots of Love and Light dear friend and fellow traveler on the freedom.
Thank you, Jo. I really appreciate your kind words. ❤️
CAROL.Bless your heart, sending you lots of LOVE N BIG HUGS,DARLING
Theresa, thank you for the love, and ESPECIALLY the hugs! ❤️
So happy for you, Carol! You ARE lovable! Sending love and light your way.
Thank you, Sachi. ❤️
Like I spoke of yesterday, I moved back in with my former husband, not a decision most witnessing it could begin to understand. Before I made the decision I was taken to the feeling of a major miracle taking place, it brought me to tears it was such a clear message for my next step. The mystery of that miracle drives me thru all the discomforts of being here. He has always been my greatest teacher or mirror. So I believe it is show time. My soul brought me here to get it at the deepest level. As I write this I well up with tears, feeling afraid but excited in a weird sort of way. I cant run from it, no car, no money, no job, what a perfect set up to get it! Arggggg. My resistance is so strong. All I know is I want freedom from my self imposed bullshit! So glad you are all here on this journey with me, reading the posts helps me to see a little more clearly. Its all so right on time.
Much love to you, Diane. ♥
(((DIANE))) much love and big HUGS,,,we are really glad you are here too, these stories just touch my soul so deeply, I too am so GRATEFUL you are all here,,,,,,this trigger lesson is a biggie, bless your heart
it is not only how we perceive things but how our emotions come into play and how they are expressed or repressed. do we decide to expand ourself into that unknown or do we trap ourself in that comfort zone limiting ourself. as we all start to awaken into another reality, paradigm shift, may we be the catalysts to assist others on their journey. knowledge gives us power, hopefully the power of LoVe. life are full of lessons, experiences, we all make mistakes along the way, at least we tried and hopefully we can grow from our mistakes and continue on. what were the contracts that we made along the way do we remember ? thanks so much for sharing your uniqueness, many blessings, & LoVe to you all, and thank you for LoVing me.
Well said LLOYD, thank you for that, love n hugs
OK. I am having a hard time with the triggers. I have plenty and I see how I try to defend against them. That has been because of my tendency to rush in with my opinions which get me in big trouble. Since childhood, I have had an energy around me that people recognize even when I’m not saying anything. I broadcast my deeper emotions through tone of voice and body language, so even if I am trying to be nice and non-combative it comes through anyway. So I decided I might as well have my say, which really alienates people sometimes. So between rock and hard place, I just don’t go there anymore. When triggered I try to avoid it. I feels like a mistake whenever I believe someone needs to hear my opinion. So todays teaching about really feeling the trigger without acting. ACK! How am I going to do that? Looking at the triggers as ways in which I get thrown into not good enough, unworthy, unloveable is probably the key, which makes it my deal and not anything that needs to be addressed to others. Right?
Beautifully expressed, Cheryl Rose – even the confusion. Not unlike what most of us are feeling and experiencing. ♥
Totally right! It is about our own emotions! Love and Care!
love and hugs, CHERYL ROSE
I tend to avoid people or situations that trigger me. But in the last year, I have come to see these situations like Panache said–as a reflection in a mirror of something in me that arises and needs to be addressed. In fact, I have come to see that everything I judge about others (my husband, people of a different religion that I stereotype as condemning others, people of a different political party, etc.) is really bringing up emotions and unresolved issues in me. Recently, a Facebook friend hit a MAJOR TRIGGER for me when she “liked” someone’s article, which article was totally homophobic and contained some very condemning and hateful comments about people who are lesbian, gay, bisexual, or transgender. After getting angrier than I have been in a very long time, I realized that what it triggered in me was a sense of shame for being bisexual, a sense of “I am not good enough, I am unworthy, I am unlovable” for being bisexual, guilt for being in a relationship with someone of the same sex (which arises because of the religion and family structure in which I was raised), fear of being all of who I am for fear I will be judged and not accepted, sadness, self-judgment, and the repeating pattern of all these thoughts and emotions! And in the end I also realized that my mind was just attached to this self-identity of “being bisexual” and feeling a defensive need to stick up for all people who are lesbian, gay, bisexual, or transgender. I realized that’s the ego creating this self identity that needs defending in order to have some job to do. What I needed to work on and will continue to work on is dealing with all these emotions that arise and not hold on to them in my body like some form of punishment. I can feel and process the emotions that arise, then use my ego to my advantage to spread a message of love and acceptance and authenticity, and continue working on being the Divine soul that I am (and each of us are without the outer armor we use against each other at times and as our “defense”). As I am even writing this and about to post it, I have this tremendous FEAR that I should not, that I will be judged, and sadness over it all, but I am posting it anyway. Being vulnerable and authentic is good–we can see the common connection in all of us this way. I hope this all makes some sense. XOXOXO <3
Catherine – I think a lot of us in the LGBT community respond the same way to these types of articles and social media postings. It’s been a journey for me to unravel the shame around being gay, and these comments still poke me from time to time.
If we are truly mirrors for each other, then it would be interesting to know what emotions we bring up in those who are posting homophobic comments. We are probably both dealing with the same emotion, just the other side of the coin.
Thanks for sharing!
Wow, Catherine and Jen, my first reaction is I LOVE YOU, and as Panache says, I LOVE your sexual orientation. I can only, barely, imagination the minefield you must navigate socially and emotionally; and it is not because of YOU it is because of what others put in front of you which you cannot ignore. I think, but I’m not sure, if I were in your position I would not even be interested in the emotions of the homophobes. I finally learned a few years ago that my cold, controlling, narcissistic husband IS my mirror (I just now changed that from ‘is not’ to ‘is’!) in that when I stopped caring at all about what he was thinking or feeling, I became much more immune to him, more powerful for my own well-being, and his behaviors started to lessen (not go away, mind you, just lessen). Back then, I was not thinking about this concept of mirroring, but I see now the definition. Wishing you all the best things in your journey. ~ love
Thank you, Catherine, for you openness and honesty. ♥
Catherine, I honor your courage to move forward in the face of your fear… Your willingness to be authentic and vulnerable touches my heart. Much love!
(((CATHERINE))) your story makes perfect sense and thank you for being brave enough to post your thoughts and feelings, I really appreciate where you are coming from and I am grateful,,,wouldn’t it be GREAT if everyone would just quit judging and love us all for who we are, who cares what color our skin is or who we love, the important thing is that we love each other, bless your heart for being so brave, sweetheart, much love and big hugs
Aloha catherine thank for for ur share—it’s another step out of the closet-every time we say something regarding homophobic comments, we breathe easier because we r accepting more of ourselves that we felt we had to hide. And it does indeed show we r everywhere and very soon we can then look at these comments as the ignorance and fear it is and feel compassion for those still stuck in their little boxes
Thank you for all the love you are all showing! 🙂 <3
Today I feel that I am being my own trigger….the mind and the ego are revolting or playing hide and seek as I delved into what is really going on…creating their distractions to shove my higher self out of the way.
Another great passage this morning! Thank you!
For some reason The Trigger that I have been aware of these past few years is “Mean” I feel mean, I think you are mean, You all think I am mean, My mom was mean, My kids think I am so Mean. Mean, mean, mean….I feel it, I breath into it, I am present with it. It seams to always come back? Triggers, Anything or anybody Triggers it. just breath Maria, just breath Maria
You’ve got it, Maria — just breathe. I’m finding that helps more than anything to move the intense emotion through us and out. For as long as I can remember, I’ve held my breath, resulting in a lot of muscle tension in my body. Learning and practicing deep breathing has been an unexpected “jewel” in this program. Thank you, Panache! ♥
I feel like the people who trigger me show me a part of my personality that I don’t like – the part that is overly confident for show, the needy side, the know-it-all, the control freak. After reading about this, my focus will be on recognizing the emotion and being okay with it and letting it dissolve. I’ve always known that running away or pushing back on these people wasn’t the answer, but I didn’t know how to unravel these responses and feelings. Now I do! Thanks!!
So true, Jen. I’ve learned — and most recently VERY clearly — that what I don’t like or judge in another is merely reflecting back to me those same traits in myself that I don’t like and judge as “wrong.” The people who trigger me are, in fact, giving me gifts. Do I (we) thank them? Usually not — mostly blame. Although, to give credit where credit is due, I mostly don’t play the “blame game” anymore. Much love to you. ♥
I have been triggered a lot these last few days and I could see how my fear, worry, stress and tension is coming up. It’s just the way my mind is, trying to breath and let go and reassure myself that all will be well and it’s ok.
Being on this journey with feeling and allowing our different emotions to rise and surface and allowing them to wash through us … is definitely the way to react to triggers. Just this morning I drove my dear spiritual friend to go to the airport for she is moving out of state. Sad for me. I was triggered. Though I know she feels sad for leaving here and me, she also isn’t want to show emotions in public. Our Goodbye hug didn’t seem to reflect how I know she really feels. I know this about. Yet, for a second or two it triggered my feeling of unlovable, being forgotten as a child. When I got into my car, I allowed this feeling to wash through me, it’s not me, it’s her and I love myself the way I am….
I am exhausted — and at the same time exhilarated — from the intense emotion moving through me. I’m going to rest now. Thank you, Jennifer-N, for reinforcing in your comment what I was coming to realize. I’ll be back later. I love you all. Thank you for being in my life and being my partners on this AMAZING journey! ♥
Cultivate the curiosity to run towards YOUR triggers, more of what YOU truly want awaits YOU on the other side Of YOUR discomfort ❤️
I do not like to be pushed or bullied. I think it happens to me once in while because I have not mastered or developed the ability fully to stand up for myself. As much as it looks like that I do (since I come across strong, intelligent and all that), in reality I don’t and as a result, I suffer. I withdraw from others and feel sad, isolated and lonely. If I were to turn the table around, I never remember ever bullying anyone and no one has ever told me that they felt that I bullied them! So, I am not a bully, yet I have been bullied most of my life. Why is that?
sending you love ROSE,,,,I don’t understand the bullying either but I think the bully is so insecure that they lash out at someone else who they think they can over power, to make them look like the stronger one, sad though, I really hate seeing that happen to anyone,,,and I have never been a bully either,,,love and hugs
My constant trigger is my mother with whom I live together. There hardly passes a day when I let her trigger myself. And God! how I wish to have that teflon coating, that immunity to her unfriendly remarks. Though I am a grown-up, in my 50-ies, I do not peel the potatoes, do not iron clothes or wash them the way mother thinks should be done. I keep thinking what is all this telling me, what should I know, what should I learn? I honestly have no clue. Dived today into the feeling inside me after the irritable situation. And what I felt was the feeling of: unlovable, unworthy and not supported… by your own mother. Although it was not a pleasant surprise, I kind of felt a lighter inside and the feeling of insult kind of faded away. But what should I do next time? Feel the feeling that is coming from inside instead of starting to defend myself? Let mother tell me nasty and insulting things? The only solution I can think of is live separately. From the distance I think it would be ok to communicate for both of us. Or am I this way missing the lesson? What lesson?
Dear Makarika, please consider a new way to hear her and look at your interactions. Please do not take her comments to you personally. She may just be caught up in her own thinking of the right way to do certain things, without realizing everyone has their own way of successfully accomplishing the same tasks. She may just be verbalizing what are her own strict rules of how things must be done as she learned from her parents. There are differences in the generations of how our grandparents and parents were raised, and the newer generations were not exposed to the same thinking from family and society, it can make understanding where they are coming from more difficult. I know your mother loves you and probably just doesn’t realize how her ‘helpful’ guidance maybe sounding so critical and not loving. Your time together is limited and as you experience shifts in your awareness, acceptance and energy, she too will feel the changes. Talk with her lovingly and see if she also would enjoy a new way of speaking to one another, chances are she isn’t aware of how she is coming across to you. People get set in their ideas and their ways, but no doubt you would both enjoy a more peaceful interaction. Remind her that she has taught you well to do many things and ask her to trust that you are more than capable of them all. I wish you both love, compassion and peace. Big hugs and love!
Dear Goldnrose, thank you so much for encouragement, warmth, appreciation and love.
love and hugs (((MALARIKA))) I love how eloquently GOLDNROSE chose her words,,,in my experience, staying as calm as you can, helps a lot
Thank you Makarika and Teresa Sweetdreamz, these words come from my heart, through experiences and lessons learned from my grandmother, mother and best friend, all who have passed on. I can so relate to the feelings you shared Makarika, feeling unloved from our own mothers, ouch! Thanks to Panache we have so many new ways to look at that experience, so many blessings! Yes! Yes to life in all it’s yin/yang glory!
Perfect for today. The last 2 days I’ve asked my neighbors to turn their noisy fans off at night. They say they will do it, and then don’t do it. My trigger is not being heard-going back to childhood. I’ll watch my lesson here and remember I am worthy, not to be afraid of confrontation, and I’ll hold my head up high. I am here, and deserve to be heard. I will gather support and ask again until I am heard. Much love to all of you.
Pragito. I had the same issue! And still the noisy fans kept running! Then I found, I had to turn it back onto me. How can I Value and Hear myself? Then my wise Sister told me what she does is put on her own noisy bathroom fan and that drowns out the other noise. Doing this I found I had the Power to create something that I could do to empower myself. Sometimes listening to an audio of Panache, or nature sounds can distract the outer world enough for you to BE with yourSelf.
My experience is two sided. On one hand the triggers bring up the negative to allow and dissolve and on the other hand like mindfulness they remind me to then breathe and center myself back into being and also recognize the mirror of being in everyone else.
Yesterday was a big day for me and I felt like I did an emotional marathon. I went to bed very early, taking the book with me and putting it under my pillow. I felt totally exhausted… but in a good way… Waking up this morning it took me a while to realize and, moreover, to trust that there was a feeling of being lighter. I could actually FEEL joy, love and gratefulness since what seems forever. Then there was this little voice in me whispering “breakthrough”… and immediately this self-doubt came up, wanting to lure me into that this is not a real breakthrough, that I don’t even know how a shift feels etc. etc. etc. … Then fear came up that I will get punished for feeling good, for shining my light… And then… I laughed… recognizing this all for being my inner sabotaging as if I had hit “play” on the recorder and all this “I am unworthy, I am not good enough, I am unlovable” was playing. This all happened within a short amount of time. I concentrated on breathing and I felt as if I am watching some kind of play going on a stage. Realizing that this is not me. And just for making a point to myself here, I allow myself to not just whisper but to shout out at the top of my lungs BREAKTHROUGH… and fully owning and receiving it!
Thank you all for supporting me through this and holding this sacred space of possibilities for ALL of us – may it be visible through your replies and comments or invisible by just being part of this community. We are all so mad-wicked awesome – as Panache would say!!!
YAY, Sabine! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
AWESOME SABINE,,,,BREAKTHROUGH, BREAKTHROUGH, BREAKTHROUGH, LOVING THAT BREAKTHROUGH SO EMPOWERING ISN’T IT, HOORAY
(((SABINE!!!))) I am so happy to hear this! There is nothing like the feeling of joy. I think it is even better than the feeling of being loved, but then maybe I don’t know enough about that second one. And gratitude… so important for a sense of wellbeing. I practice it faithfully. Sometimes it is a tough one, but I always can start with gratitude for being alive, and for nature. WOO-HOOOOO for (((YOU)))!!! ~ joy
I love and accept all my experiences of desperation as I now realize that desperation is just a lower frequency of
PASSION for wanting a fulfilling life. Integrating all parts of me does not require it to be uncomfortable when I love myself FULLY. Vibrating in REVERENCE today. ☆☆☆♥♥♥☆☆☆
I love this, Diane! So true, how can I possibly recognize and value passion for life if I haven’t experienced desperation? Vibrating with you in reverence today. Keep shining!
Hi everyone, I was listening to soft new age music then it turned into scary music. I wanted to put something else on but did not . I allowed it to trigger fears, insecurity, sadness in me. Then when it expanded and flowed into harmonies I went with that.
Last few days lots of things, people have triggered me. I could see how worried, stressed, tense, scared I got and trying to reassure, tell myself it’s going to be ok, all is well.
I discovered my personal missing link in today’s chapter… I am quite aware of triggers and when being triggered. And I was always more than willing to look at myself and finding the cause for other people reactions or my reaction to them within myself. Yet what I realized today was, that I always came from an inner place of unworthiness, self-judgement and guilt, BLAMING myself for having caused this reaction in someone and my own becoming triggered. There must be something wrong with me… No wonder that this person reacts like this, it’s my own fault… It’s my own fault that I get triggered… I am a bad person… I just didn’t know what to do or how to process my awareness, turning it all onto myself.
What a relief to learn, that the trigger only holds an information for myself… or if I trigger another person just by being me, it holds an information for THEM… not an evaluation of my person… And it also doesn’t mean that the other person’s behavior is necessarily okay… It doesn’t mean that I have to play small and become invisible just so to hopefully not to trigger the other person. Of course, just dawning on me, this is how I grew up… walking on eggshells… not allowing myself to stand in my own power… Ahhh! Puzzle pieces falling into place!
I would say most of my triggers evolve around the information and teaching to stand up for myself and stand in my own power. Interestingly it happens to me over and over again that I am triggering people in power positions. Doctors, trainers, healers, coaches… you name it. My first thought was always: “OMG, what did I do wrong?”… Torturing myself to find an answer. What a relief… my triggers have something to teach me about myself. Something I need to learn. In being triggered, I am given an opportunity to grow. Awesome! Thank you so much, Panache, for making this so clear!!!
Thank YOU, Sabine, your comment is so helpful. That conversation with yourself is exactly the same one I have with myself. Much love
Thank you Sabine for your sharings and honesty! Tremendeous! Love and Light!
Thanks for the insights you provide here. “eggshells” and “stand in my own power” resonate a thread within I will follow… Peace, Therese
Thank you for sharing that, Sabine. It triggered memories of me “walking on eggshells” around my father. He was a “rage-aholic” and I never knew whether he would welcome me with a smile or yell at me. Much love to you. ❤️
Sabine, I had to read your comment twice. It is so helpful. Especially what you said, “triggering people in power positions. Doctors, trainers, healers, coaches… ” It is awkward, that look in their eyes that says they are not accustomed to being challenged. And I don’t mean that we TRY to challenge them. It seems that just by merely asking an intelligent question, or asking for elaboration, the person in the power position is taken by surprise or even visibly annoyed. I like what Panache said at the end of the Morning passage, “I’m here. I’m real. Deal with me.” No more invisibility, no more eggshells. Although I have learned to preface my questions or comments with some innocuous phrase so as to avoid triggering those people who see themselves as experts. Egos are such tender things. Good grief, it’s okay to be intelligent!
I spent years in therapy trying to heal from my childhood. It was filled with incest, beatings with a cat-o-nine-tails, verbal abuse. I was sent away when the courts stepped in. I was always made to feel like I had done something wrong. When I am around my family and the yelling starts, and they stop talking to me for no explained reasons I feel the same feelings of fear, unworthiness etc. I had married 2x to abusers as well. When I decided that I would never be abused again and began to set boundaries I had to walk away from those types of persons. When I do end up around them I literally begin to physically tremble. I feel the same things I felt as a child. The difference now is that I have control and will not allow anyone in my life who will not treat me with respect. Just because you get triggers doesn’t mean you have to allow people to abuse you. feel the feelings and move away is my take
Bless your heart, JEAN,,,you are WORTHY of so much more,,,,,LOVE AND HUGS my friend
I’m just into the morning section of Triggers and when I run it in my head the one that comes up is anger when I get triggered. I’m feeling totally discouraged today. There’s been an irritation building in me since Day 7 and by the time I got home yesterday, it was in full swing. I heard a voice say (my inner saboteur), as I was walking up my garden path (no pun intended), ‘You will never beat me, I’ll always get the better of you’. It’s so not fun BEing me at the moment. I like me (little kaye) most of the time, but the parts of me that doubt, and are still in the fear, lack and scarcity model I still allow to bug the crap out of me and wonder whether I’ll ever bring integrate them and bring them into completion. Much love and blessings to everyone.
Love and courage!
Thank you so much, Ivar
blessings to you KAYE,,,keep going, I have faith in you, fill that little KAYE up with hugs and lots of love
Thank you for the love and hugs, Teresa. I am gratefully receiving them
I believe in you and that life is unfolding FOR you. “Angry people are more empowered people…” (Panache). May your anger lead you to your power which is waiting behind the veil… Finding grace in the discomfort… Sending you a HUGE hug and love blast!
Received with so much gratitude, thank you Sabine
Hi. I need some help. I am triggered by something AND I want to be an instrument of change in my community of 30,000 people. I could use your prayers and guidance.
I live in an apartment complex within Manhattan (been here 19 years). It’s called Stuyvesant Town. It’s a unique park setting within the city and was designed after WW II to be affordable housing. Over the years we’ve been bought, sold, bought, sold by companies that harass tenants and just care about the finan…cial bottom line. It’s been destroying affordability and community. The property is now going up for sale again. The Tenants Association wants to buy the property to keep it affordable. A huge corporation has bid on the property. We really need a miracle. A Healing.
I am triggered by these corporations preying on us and I am feeling my feelings around it. And, I want to try to be an instrument of change here for the healing of this community. I am looking for advice on what state of consciousness I need to achieve to affect a positive outcome.
Am I right to assume I need to find a place of peace within myself before I can help bring peace here? Do i need to be free of all charge from the triggers or be aware of the charge from the triggers while identifying with the peace inside me? How can I engage others, who are all triggered by the sale, feeling helplessness, powerlessness, despair, and anger?
I’d appreciate any help in supporting me in being an instrument of healing for this community. And please pray for a change, that will once and for all, create stability, affordability, peace, and community here. Thank you!!!
SUSAN, I was very touched by your response and dilemma. Growing up in the 60s I am at heart a bit of social activist, so I applaud you for taking a stand. And I hear your call for peace inside yourself, even as your home is threatened once again. I have really no answer except to hope that by continuing this process and staying in touch moment to moment with your deeper feelings that you will be guided to the appropriate action. And it will rise organically from all you are. Much Love.
Thank you Cheryl. I am praying for guidance in what role I can take here and feeling the triggers!!
Praying for a change! Feel in your Heart what to do! Nothing wrong in taking actions from within! Love and Strength!
Thanks Ivar. Praying for guidance and being with the triggers in the most healing, feeling way.
SUSAN, this is the perfect place for a powerful group prayer for your situation, sending lots of love and Prayer to help you all find a solution, thank you for reaching out
Susan, thank you for sharing your dilemma! You said this is a repeating theme. Today is about triggers and you used these beautiful descriptive words: “feeling helplessness, powerlessness, despair, and anger”; and also: “please pray for a change that will once and for all, create stability, affordability, peace, and community here.” Turn into each of these emotional words. Breathe! Relax! Let the energy Flow! There is NO outer community. This plea for engaging, praying IS for your Inner-Self-Community – Here, right here Inside You. The only true safety, stability, Peace comes from within. Nothing outside of us can supply us with that. I support and I encourage your tender Loving Heart! As Panache said: “Be kind with your energy.”
Praying for your community’s healing and sustainable housing, Susan
Still resting — just back for a few moments to post another big breakthrough — with regard to my health. I’ve mentioned before that I have rheumatoid arthritis (RA) with fairly severe joint damage in my hands. While I knew “in my head”what I’m about to share, I never until now let its true meaning sink deep into my emotional awareness. RA is an AUTOIMMUNE disease. That means that something went awry such that my immune system has been attacking my body. That’s the health connection I see in terms of sabotaging my health.
Carol, your insight will be very useful as you travel these days of change. Having worked in the medical community, I have watched people have insights about their health that have made marvelous changes in their condition. And yet, others, equally worthy remain unchanged. So however this out pictures for you in regard to your overall health, my prayer is that you are able to continually affirm and nourish yourself without judgement about the Auto-Immune disease.
Thank you, Cheryl Rose. ❤️
Great insight! Love and Health!
AWESOME, CAROL,,,you see how you created it, now you can uncreate it,,,hooray
Thank you, Teresa. ❤️
I have experience with a trigger that behooves me after months and years of ‘best consciousness’ practices! Is there an alternate way through “unidentifiable objects” triggers?
I figure the trigger is somehow entangled with fear. I’m pretty fearless when it comes to dumping what no longer serves me and I’m just stumped by the unidentified energy. I should mention that I’ve seen the trigger transform in force and frequency, over YEARS. I would love to experience freeing myself 100%. The trigger is generated with two family members who are not receptive to transparency or to concepts of consciousness expansion. Any insights from Panache and this community are welcome. I thank you all for the oneness we are. Peace, Therese
Hi Therese, thank you for sharing here! Ask yourself: “Can you Love them just the way they are?” “Can you see the wounded child inside crying out to be Loved just as they are?” “What part of YOU is not receptive to them exactly as they are?” Accepting 100% of ourselves means we are able to Accept 100% of everyone Exactly as they are; and everything Exactly as it is. Much Love and Peace to you!
Thank you GE, for the questions you pose. I love these family members, and feel compassion for them; and recently, I’m able to acknowledge that I do not like them and dumped guilt and shame around that knot. We are like oil and water. I accept their experiencing-choices as integral for them, for their journeys. I’m no longer agreeing to accept abuse from myself or another, and don’t even believe in “other!” I’m confused by what the “mirror” keeps showing me. Evidently, an unconscious charge hasn’t yet reached the surface. It’s true that I’m still bolstering the 100% measure of selfLove. That one often resembles a tidal wave form for me, rather than say, a standing wave. I know how to Be with all these frequencies that arise; and trust, even through a serious deficit of Joy.
My trigger today was not a person but an idea: Marketing. I am completing my second book, and today I received an email about a free online course for writing, publishing, and promoting your book. Well, just looking over the topics by the various speakers triggered revulsion in me for self-promotion, author platforms, business acumen & money-making strategies. I’ve been a writer for many years, and yes, this is my soul signature, but marketing feels completely NOT me. Panache, I know you’re going to tell me to take the course, to run toward those triggers and see what happens. I’m considering it….just don’t expect me to like it….
Feel the resistance Peggy and do it anyway ❤️
I think I have shifted into that place, Panache. Yesterday was powerful resistance; this morning, after reading Soulful Surrender, I stepped into allowing. Thank you, for the power of the energetic flow of this path!! ♥
Just a little more encouragement, Peggy. Yes, do it! With an open mind. There will be a lot of information and you can pick and choose among the ideas that least trigger your revulsion. Or perhaps there could be benefit in choosing to look long and hard at the one that triggers the MOST revulsion? Congratulations! Your SECOND book! Totally awesome!
Thank you, Rhonda–this is perfect advice! I’m going to do it!
Dear Peggy, I don’t expect you to like it!-but it’s OK if you do. And whatever you decide, is the best choice for you. I would love to experience humanity’s unified, coherent jump to a faster spinning reality- a reality without “marketing,” period. It’s already happening.
Beautiful, Therese–love what you expressed!
Go for it, Peggy. Much, much love
Thank you, Kaye!! Love to you! ♥
I had so many insight today .
(((( )))) and <3 seams to trigger something within me and I think it's the fear of asking so I won't look stupid or use it in the wrong way.
So here it is: What does it mean?
Another insight was when I listened to see if I had any messages on my phone. I had only my mom's message that she left on mother's day to thank me. I kept it for some reason and by listening to it again I noticed my reaction to it. "Here she goes again, I know that tone of voice." Then it click.
I remembered what had happened between my and my daughter, last month.
I was listening to her and suddenly she said: "HO! I know that face!" and she left clacking the door on her was out without any explanation. I knew it had nothing to do with what I had said because I didn't say anything. But I then remembered the same thing happening the last time I was with all my children and grand-children. They blame me for looking angry and I was not. I realised later that they took for angry face was my physical pain. It was not too long after a car accident I had in 2002. I had injured my back and my brain. Just two years ago I could finally let go of my walker and could finally remember my grand-children's name and read a full book understanding and retaining what I was reading.
So my insight is that sometime we make judgement from our own point of view and it may well not be the true or anything to do with us that we took personally.
I kept the message from my mom and will listen to it until I have no trigger.
Something else happen while I was relaxing in the bathtub. I heard clearly in my mind: "Your books are coming, thank you for letting me help you." That's weird I thought. So I expect the books to come soon. Maybe it was a premonition. I use to have dreams of premonition but since my car accident I rarely dream anymore and most of the time I don't recall them.
Maybe all of this is waking up more part of me that I was expecting. Love to you all. 🙂
Glad to hear about your insights! Love and Light!
Ivar, thank you (((<3))) to you 🙂
YAY, Danielle! ❤️
HOORAY DANIELLE. love and hugs
(((Teresa))) 🙂 Thank you
Hi Danielle! No question is ever stupid! you are Safe here! to answer your first question… <3 means Heart, Love. Turn your head to the right sideways and it looks like a heart. I did not know either what <3 meant until someone explained it here many days ago. (((( )))) I think means HUGS! It looks like arms wrapping around what's in the middle! Thank you for all your insights! I like what Panache suggested about a family member, or anyone we have issues with. We are to imagine them with us and "HUG them. Keep hugging them until the energy diffuses." You are Very fortunate to have the physical presence of loved ones around you and the opportunity to Hug! Hug! away all you want! Much <3 and (((Danielle)))! PS if you want a laugh, you may Really like the poem called "The Cookie Thief" by Valerie Cox.
GE, thank you for answering my question. Funny I thought that the heart was a birthday hat from looking on the left side. I can see the heart from the right side. I just didn’t do the left side until you mention it. 🙂
As ((( ))) I thought it meant to talk loud like “hear me when I say this” 🙂
I’m glad I asked. I will look for the Cookie Thief. I love to laugh. Thank you so much (((GE))) <3 😉
Danielle, I laughed aloud about the birthday hat. I love to laugh, too!
PS: About me hearing: “Your books are coming, thank you for letting me help you.”
It really was a premonition but not the way I thought. Just like in a dream it was distorted.
I went to check my mail and I got my monthly DVD from Spiritual Cinema Circle. I always anticipate it to arrived. So I put the DVD on and what did I see?
Luminary Interview : Panache Desai
I couldn’t believe it. Since I heard about Panache on May 1, I was hoping that Gaiamtv would talk about him. And here he was an interview from Gaiamtv.
Panache you were great in this interview.
So my premonition make sense to me now. He was talking about what we are experiencing in here. 🙂
Much love to you, Danielle